Even those of us who work so hard at motivating and inspiring people have days when nothing is going right and sadness envelops our heart. Maybe that sounds a bit melodramatic but I’ve had a disappointment this week which has really knocked me off my confidence pedestal. My first speaking event has been at this time cancelled. I won’t go into the reasons I was given. Suffice it to say I strongly disagree with the decision made and think it highly unprofessional. The cancellation (or postponement?) was not my fault I was told so I’m not beating myself up about it but I was so looking forward to it! I’m so very bitterly disappointed, angry and sad all rolled into one big emotional ball. I had put so much time and effort in preparing for this day and now I have to take all that and put it aside for another day I don’t know for sure will even come!
I know I have to believe other opportunities will come my way, maybe even better ones but for today, I need a hug! I guess this experience tells me I still have lots to learn about and work on about myself. I need to not fight change so fiercely. I need to not wallow in self-pity and pick myself up by the bootstraps and look forward to brighter things ahead. I have to be understanding and tolerant of other people’s right to change their minds and in doing so affect my life. I must be forgiving and not hold onto hurts and anger. I must accept I can not control other people, only my reactions to them. I must be a big girl, put on my big girl pants, wipe the tears away and move on.
But for this moment, this author of Pretty, Plus and Proud needs a hug!